过去一年中，我选择保持单身。这不是因为环境因素，不是因为没人约我出去或是我不能找到合适人选。有些人很难相信我选择不去约会。大姨和大学同学们老是对我投以怪异的眼神和不解地咕哝。为什么会有人愿意保持单身?愿意独自一人消磨时光?没有继续在Tinder(网络交友平台)上相亲的我，难道不是错过了生活(的乐趣)吗?要是我命中注定的另一半就在Tinder上，但我因为忙着保持单身而错过了他，那怎么办?
I'm not the slightest bit embarrassed to say out loud that I've been dating myself and it's been the mostnurturing, sustainable, and non-anxiety inducing relationship I've ever had. There's no waiting to be texted back (or obsessing about if my text is too flirty, too needy, too wordy), and there's no feeling like another person just doesn't understand me.
大声说出我正和自己相约，一点也不让我尴尬，而且它是我所有的关系中最滋养人、最持久也最不会引发焦虑的。我不需要等待他人的回复(或是费神考虑我的短信是否太过轻浮、有求于人或是冗长啰嗦)，另外我也不会再有那种就是有人无法明白我的感觉了。
That doesn't mean I don't plan on dating other people in future -- I definitely do. But I know now that the relationship I've built with myself is a model for the relationship I want to be in. I'm kind and patient and gentle and loving and forgiving of myself. I laugh at my mistakes and I let go of my errors. I am strong and courageous. That's the kind of person I want to be with and the type of relationship I hope to be in.
这不意味着我将来不打算谈恋爱(我当然会谈啦)。可我如今明白，与自己建立的这种关系是我想要与另一半相处的模式。我友善、耐心、温柔、友爱又宽容。我对自己犯的错误一笑了之。我强大而勇敢。这便是我想要的对象，也是我希望同他建立起的恋爱关系。
I know now that I'm not going into the relationship as a half, I'm going in as a whole. So whether it works out or doesn't work out, deep down, I haven't lost anything. I'm still me. I'm still complete. I still have the friendship I've built with the me that I've grown to know and love over the past 23 years. That's the greatest relief I've ever known.
我现在知道了，我不会在恋爱关系中有所保留，而将会是全身心投入。因此无论这段关系是否有好的结果，在内心深处我都没有任何损失。我仍然是我自己，我仍然完好无损，我同自己建立起的友谊依旧存在，那是我在过去23年中渐渐了解并爱上的。这便是我所知的最大欣慰。
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